Even though it's easy to tell other people not to worry, it's not so easy to take that advice. I knew our sweet baby would come at exactly the right time, but at some point my pregnant brain decided I knew what was best. I should have been able to decide when the time was right. I had been to my 39-week appointment that Thursday and was given the gift of an induction date! My due date was the 10th and the induction was scheduled for the 12th...but my doctor of choice was on call the weekend before that. I fell into the trap. I did all the things I thought should make me go into labor. You guessed it: no labor. I woke up angry at God Sunday and Monday because things weren't going my way. Silly, but true. God has such an interesting way of speaking into us what we need when we need it. This is from the devotion I did that Monday morning:
"All of us are waiting on something, often wondering if God has forgotten us."
"This very minute He's working for His glory and for your good. Though circumstances say otherwise, God is going to come through, on schedule, fulfilling His long-appointed plans for you. Don't give up before the time is right."
It was exactly what I needed that morning. Just a little reminder that I'm not in charge and that although my life feels pretty messy, He has plans for me.
That was Monday morning. I had contractions all day as I had been having for weeks! That night I was timing my contractions, but finally decided to go on to bed. I think I had been asleep for about 20 minutes when my water broke. Chris was still awake and watching tv, but it was pretty funny to see him jump up out of the bed! In those moments between jumping up out of the bed and getting to the hospital, I had the shakes pretty bad just from nerves. Chris held me close and prayed for us before we left home- he's a keeper!
When I got to the hospital, they got me into a room pretty quickly and determined that I wasn't telling jokes and was actually in labor.
They gave me an epidural at around 5:00 Tuesday morning and said I was dilated to 5 centimeters.
At about 8:00 or so I started telling them I think it's go time. Maybe they hear lots of women say that when it's not true, or maybe I just seemed like I didn't know what I was talking about. I don't know, but they checked me again and decided maybe I was right.
While the nurse is checking things out she says to me very calmly that she doesn't think the baby is head down...could I just hold on a moment while she gets the doctor. Oh sure. I'll just be here.
The doctor comes in (even though she's not the one I thought was right, undoubtedly she was) and confirms- yep, that is not the head. Now, while I am normally a pretty rational person L&D is not a great place to showcase that! I say, "so I guess you'll need to cut me." Insert wide-eyed pregnant lady emoji here. I immediately look at Andrea and tell her this is all her fault! Just four months previous, she also had an unexpectedly breech baby!
Oh, no. It's no problem, the doctor tells me. The baby is very close. Chris and Andrea would likely be able to tell the story more clearly, but I remember asking anyone that would listen if I should try to deliver or go for the C-section. I ask if this is even ok; to deliver a baby this way??!! There could only have been a few minutes between that and our sweet Lily coming into this world. She did not come as I expected, but all was well. The delivery was scary there just for a minute, but very quick and not bad at all.
This sweet baby is such an unexpected gift!
At a year, she can walk but doesn't want to most of the time. I mean, why would she if someone will just carry her?!
She eats and sleeps very well.
It seems that either she's smiling all over herself, or she's getting down to the business with those eyebrows- not so much with the in between.
She can clap and wave.
Any cabinets or drawers that are open or unlocked are like some kind of treasure that must immediately be strewn out all over the floor.
She's beginning to climb!
She nods her head yes while making a very affirmative kind of sound....it doesn't seem like that should be happening yet and makes me laugh almost every time.
I'm so thankful that I get to be her Mama!