In my last post I said that "we" had moved. That was sort of true, but I also kind of glossed over this one giant piece of information.
My dad, the girls, and I moved to North Carolina.
Chris still has a permanent address in McDonough...for now.
We talked this idea of moving very nearly to death and felt like this really was the right time to move, but Chris is still in school. He's too close to the end to switch to another school. He'll finish his program in the spring, and then be able to move here full time.
Until then that equals a lot of driving for him, and more time apart than we'd like. If someone had asked me if we'd ever be the people to do this, I would've laughed at that foolishness.
All the same, here we are. What that means is really soaking up our time together and being as intentional as we can with every moment.
During the months before we actually decided to go ahead and move, I'm just not sure that you can imagine the worry/doubt/freakoutishness that went on with trying to make such a big life decision (unless you've done it too). Since God knows who I am and how my brain works, he extended an amazing kindness to me.
On one of the days Chris and I had to be in court, Chris was coming from the station and I was coming from home, so we were going to have to meet there. We were going to be a little early and decided to meet at a coffee shop across the street from the courthouse. When I got there and found Chris, he told me that the shop wasn't actually open and that he had walked in on a prayer meeting. He introduced me to a few of the guys he'd met and we chatted for a few minutes about the coffee shop. Before we left, this one guy said his name was Micah and he really felt like he needed to tell us something. It was getting a little weird and I was getting a little nervous, but there was no polite way out.
He said he thought we were going through a difficult time, and maybe that's why we were in the coffee shop that day. Chris and I looked an each other and leaned in to hear what this dude had to say. He looked at me and said that God had given me a big, bold vision for our family and that Chris was supporting me in it; that he wasn't sure if we had kids or not, but that he thought we were going to be leading in some way...maybe leading children. The whole conversation lasted maybe a minute or two. Chris and I were teary-eyed and almost speechless. We left there and just walked down the sidewalk in silence until I was like, "hey, so maybe we should talk about what just happened!?!" It was sort of surreal. I'm not a person who asks God to give me a sign, but man- I needed that one!
After that, it was easier to go ahead. Make no mistake- every step has not been easy, but it has been doable. Even when it's been difficult, there's been peace.
One night last week I was reading Audrey's Bible to her before bed and laughed out loud at what I saw. She asked me what was funny. I just told her that God has a sense of humor.
Even when I'm overwhelmed (which happens more than I'd like), I'm thankful.
I know that we're in exactly this season because this is where we're supposed to be.