This day didn't really start out so great.
I've stayed up too late a couple of nights in a row, so I was tired.
Neither of the kids have been being super awesome for the last couple of days.
I'm still trying to get everything ready for us to go on vacation.
I went to buy a new shirt and came home with one for Chris instead.
Nothing too dramatic, just a lot of regular stuff that all added up together did not make for a sunshiny kind of morning.
Parenting is one of the greatest joys in life, but knowing that doesn't make it feel awesome all the time. I know with absolute certainty that I was chosen specifically to be a mother to our kids. Even knowing that, sometimes I feel like I'm lacking. Today is one of those days where being the mom has been hard. Instead of doing fun things, it has been a day full of misbehaving and back-talking. NOT awesome.
I am a Christian... but I'm one who tries not to beat people in the head with my Bible. I do not post one thousand scriptures and worship songs on my Twitter and Facebook. That's just not me. That being said, we did a song last Sunday and are doing it again this week that has been a great pick-me-up today. If you feel so inclined, you can check it out here.
God knows what I can handle and when I need some help.
When I was putting Audrey down for her nap, she asked me to read her "just one book," as she always does. I picked one and read it to her. I asked for a hug and kiss. When she was hugging me, she squeezed a little tighter than normal. Right by my ear in a quiet little voice she said, "you're the best!"
I needed that.
My fear and inadequacies do not define me.
It doesn't have to be a bad day. I get to choose.